Tue, 14 Oct 2008 14:10:04 GMT

it's been over a year since that terribly bitter last entry in my livejournal. to anyone who might still read this bullshit, i've changed mroe than you can even know, and i'm the happiest person ever.

:)

loove life all the time!

today has been not good. i'm too stressed!!

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 04:05:32 GMT

I have no one to talk to about anything right now, so don't read this if you don't feel like reading someone elses complaints, because that's pretty much all this is. I just need to vent!!!

Everything today irritated me. I mean, I'm excited for college to start... I really am. But I'm extreeeemely annoyed with the fact that my books aren't ready yet. I'm paying $700 out of my own bank account for these books. I have homework that I'm unable to do because I don't have them yet. How do they expect me to pass my classes when they won't even let me have the neccessary PAID FOR materials for them? Every time I think about those stupid books not being ready and how I could be doing something constructive right now such as homework rather than writing a stupid livejournal i get so upset. I just want to get started in college and I'm completely unable right now and I hate it. I don't even know what to do. I went to my RHT160 class today and just about killed myself. I'm switching out of it and going to RHT150. The teacher was a complete asshole and the most condescending man I have ever come into contact with, not to mention he was boring as fuuuuck. I left 30 minutes into the class, and then spent the next hour and a half working on keeping my internet connection(for some reason it kept disappearing randomly?), finding a different, lower level class to get into with a different teacher, trying to add the one that I chose, and failing to complete the process because the instructor isn't there on tuesdays and thursdays. I'm in hopes that I'll be able to get a hold of him tomorrow and he'll still have a seat left in the class that I want to take. I don't know what I'll do if I can't get into it. I went home after this 1.5 hour adventure accomplishing half of what I needed to do, changed into my shorts, and went to work. It was hot and muggy. When I was there I began thinking about how I'm not going to be able to manage working there six days a week and going to school. I reallllly need to talk to George about that, because it's seriously going to be a problem. I'm the only person that works. Well, I suppose lw started today, but she can't work alone for a while... I have to be there with her. I'm in college and I don't have time for this. I need to get a new job, but I would feel so terribly leaving. He has no one else to work since jessie quit. Working there conflicts with a lot, kind of. I can't get my car fixed. Ever. The dealership service shop where I would get my car fixed for free is open from 7am until 6pm. I have to go to school, and directly from school I have to go to work until seven. What am I supposed to fucking do? I went to the verizon store today because I was told by one of the sales persons when I had to get a replacement phone that if I wanted to get something other than the stupid chocolate that I would be eligible for a discount after one year of my contract, which would be in september. Okay, it's september now, so I wait 20 minutes for someone to even help me, and I come to find out that I can only get a discount on a new phone if my monthy phone bill is more than $59 a month for just the primary line. Well guess what happens. My primary line is $50 a month, and the secondary line is $10. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Not to mention the fact that I pay $15 a month for texting and $5 a month for insurance. That's so god damn cheap of them. So now, unless I want to spend $299 on a new phone, I have to wait until May, and I may throw my phone out of a window before that time comes. My aunt and I have been fighting non-stop lately and it's stupid. I really hate being single. I think i get depressed when I think about it. I want love and affection like everyone else has. I'm surrounded by friends that are all in relationships that are so cute and I'm always so jealous. Everyone just says "Oh, you don't need to be in a relationship to be happy" but it's honestly one of the only things holding me back from being happy(aside from those fucking books!), because it brings me down literally daily. aksjbkajdbg

Oh well, life is still good. Plus, at least the new 80gb ipods are only $250 instead of $350!!!!
I'm going to the bookstore and bitching tomorrow. fuck you, OU bookstore.

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 15:44:34 GMT

i went through and deleted all of my previous entries and also my old journal. i came to the decision that i have become such a different person than what i was before, and that is certainly not a bad thing.

Nicole

today has been not good. i'm too stressed!!