urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sweetx3nik Nicole Nicole 2008-10-14T14:10:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sweetx3nik:27152 2008-10-14T14:10:04Z 2008-10-14T14:10:04Z it's been over a year since that terribly bitter last entry in my livejournal.&nbsp; to anyone who might still read this bullshit, i've changed mroe than you can even know, and i'm the happiest person ever. <br /><br /><br />:)<br /><br /><br /><br />loove life all the time! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sweetx3nik:26701 2007-09-07T04:05:32Z 2007-09-07T04:05:32Z circa survive I have no one to talk to about anything right now, so don't read this if you don't feel like reading someone elses complaints, because that's pretty much all this is.&nbsp; I just need to vent!!!<br /><br /> <br /> Everything today irritated me.&nbsp; I mean, I'm excited for college to start... I really am.&nbsp; But I'm extreeeemely annoyed with the fact that my books aren't ready yet.&nbsp; I'm paying $700 out of my own bank account for these books.&nbsp; I have homework that I'm unable to do because I don't have them yet.&nbsp; How do they expect me to pass my classes when they won't even let me have the neccessary PAID FOR materials for them?&nbsp; Every time I think about those stupid books not being ready and how I could be doing something constructive right now such as homework rather than writing a stupid livejournal i get so upset.&nbsp; I&nbsp; just want to get started in college and I'm completely unable right now and I hate it.&nbsp; I don't even know what to do.&nbsp; I went to my RHT160 class today and just about killed myself.&nbsp; I'm switching out of it and going to RHT150.&nbsp; The teacher was a complete asshole and the most condescending man I have ever come into contact with, not to mention he was boring as fuuuuck.&nbsp; I left 30 minutes into the class, and then spent the next hour and a half working on keeping my internet connection(for some reason it kept disappearing randomly?), finding a different, lower level class to get into with a different teacher, trying to add the one that I chose, and failing to complete the process because the instructor isn't there on tuesdays and thursdays.&nbsp; I'm in hopes that I'll be able to get a hold of him tomorrow and he'll still have a seat left in the class that I want to take.&nbsp; I don't know what I'll do if I can't get into it.&nbsp; I went home after this 1.5 hour adventure accomplishing half of what I needed to do, changed into my shorts, and went to work.&nbsp; It was hot and muggy.&nbsp; When I was there I began thinking about how I'm not going to be able to manage working there six days a week and going to school.&nbsp; I reallllly need to talk to George about that, because it's seriously going to be a problem.&nbsp; I'm the only person that works.&nbsp; Well, I suppose lw started today, but she can't work alone for a while... I have to be there with her.&nbsp; I'm in college and I don't have time for this.&nbsp; I need to get a new job, but I would feel so terribly leaving.&nbsp; He has no one else to work since jessie quit.&nbsp; Working there conflicts with a lot, kind of.&nbsp; I can't get my car fixed.&nbsp; Ever.&nbsp; The dealership service shop where I would get my car fixed for free is open from 7am until 6pm.&nbsp; I have to go to school, and directly from school I have to go to work until seven.&nbsp; What am I supposed to fucking do?&nbsp; I went to the verizon store today because I was told by one of the sales persons when I had to get a replacement phone that if I wanted to get something other than the stupid chocolate that I would be eligible for a discount after one year of my contract, which would be in september.&nbsp; Okay, it's september now, so I wait 20 minutes for someone to even help me, and I come to find out that I can only get a discount on a new phone if my monthy phone bill is more than $59 a month for just the primary line.&nbsp; Well guess what happens.&nbsp; My primary line is $50 a month, and the secondary line is $10.&nbsp; ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?&nbsp; Not to mention the fact that I pay $15 a month for texting and $5 a month for insurance.&nbsp; That's so god damn cheap of them.&nbsp; So now, unless I want to spend $299 on a new phone, I have to wait until May, and I may throw my phone out of a window before that time comes.&nbsp; My aunt and I have been fighting non-stop lately and it's stupid.&nbsp; I really hate being single.&nbsp; I think i get depressed when I think about it.&nbsp; I want love and affection like everyone else has. I'm surrounded by friends that are all in relationships that are so cute and I'm always so jealous.&nbsp; Everyone just says "Oh, you don't need to be in a relationship to be happy"&nbsp; but it's honestly one of the only things holding me back from being happy(aside from those fucking books!), because it brings me down literally daily.&nbsp; aksjbkajdbg<br /><br />Oh well, life is still good.&nbsp; Plus, at least the new 80gb ipods are only $250 instead of $350!!!!<br />I'm going to the bookstore and bitching tomorrow.&nbsp; fuck you, OU bookstore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sweetx3nik:26562 2007-08-17T15:44:34Z 2007-08-17T15:44:34Z i went through and deleted all of my previous entries and also my old journal.&nbsp; i came to the decision that i have become such a different person than what i was before, and that is certainly not a bad thing.